zukis-got-roxas

this wasn't supposed to end let alone like this and yet i am here in another's embrace we both saw this coming it was simply inevitable but why why did i fucking lie. i lie like a promise and all my promises are lies oh the promises we had the dreams the ideas the plans all gone just like that and I've moved on another boy in my wake but then again will i really ever stop loving the only one who ever really loved me?

she was always an odd child. she talked to walls and empty spaces. she'd stare off into space for hours then snap back to earth like nothing. then there was that doll. scarlet. she made it herself. it had two beady black eyes and a black dress with a scarlet "A" on her left breast. we didn't approve, obviously, and took the doll away. but every night it would be back in her arms. for months we watched her, to see how she had gotten the doll back but she never left her room. as she got older, things got weirder. random noises in the night, things moving around more and more and whenever she got in trouble bad things would happe

what is fear? is it really anything at all? its truly just holding your self back trying not to mess things up again. fear is life. at least to a mortal. life cannot believed without fear we all fear something that isn't there that doesn't matter that truly does not need to be feared but without it where would we be? would we be behind? would we be ahead? would we seize to exist? if we weren't afraid so say what's on our minds would riots break out? or would everything come to a civil understanding? fear is such a silly thing

its truly much harder then it seems when everything around you feels as bland as a starless night but then who would truly understand? you cannot feel my pain or think my thoughts because they are so tremendous so rapid so numb so dull shes the clean glass i have to look through but how useful is a crutch in quick sand? why should we fight such and overwhelming pain? such a growing issue slowly becoming part of your life? its hard to fake a smile when you want to cry its hard to forgive when you want to say goodbye and, damn, its hard to say good bye when you don't want to leave.